2nd Chemo Day

Well what a day not good. Woke up this morning and my hair is coming out in clumps and to say  upset is an understatement. Don't think I've every been this upset. I think the reason is at the moment I can go out shopping and appear "normal" and now this is happening everyone will be looking (or not) but its the way I feel. Times like this I just want to climb on my dads lap and have a cuddle and he will tell me it will be alright, but I'm here and hes there and even speaking to him on the phone I cannot do right now as I'll just cry my eyes out and thats not fair on the old git.
I'm sure once I manage to just get the clippers and take whats left off I'll be able to move on and get stronger and just say to the hell with it and like it or lump it people but right now, I'm in a hole.


Arrived at the chemo at 10.15am did the usual bloods and then saw the doctor who could see I was about to cry my eyes out and he was kind and told me it will be fine.


Today I took my little laptop with me and spent the whole time online doing bits here and there and the time passed faster. I had my iPod with my book on it and so I listened to that which help blot out everyone and everything around me.


It all finished at 2.20pm ish and it took longer to make the future appointments and get out of there.


So thats two chemos down and two more to go and I'm sure its going to get worse before it gets better.


My blood works not so great but I go back tomorrow for the white blood cell injection and if my others don't pick up then it will be a blood transfusion oh joy really don't want that.

Date 11/8/2010		Date 11/15/2010	Date 11/22/2010	Date 11/29/10
Result	Value	Value	Value	Value
WBC White Blood Cell	6.2 (8.6)	13.9 (6.2)	8.3 (13.9)	6.6 (8.3)
Hgb Hemoglobin	12.1 (12.0)	12.5(12.1)	11.9(12.5)	10.4 (11.9)
HCT	36.7(37.1)	38.3(36.7)	35.8(38.3)	32.9 (35.8)
PLAT Blood Clotting	245 (302)	235(245)	151(235)	223 (151)
ANC 1st defender against bacteria	3.6(5.7)	9.5(3.6)	5.6(9.5)	3.9 (5.6)