Another week of Radiation down. All seems to be going ok Boob is a bit red and sore some days but the Doctor gave me some cream... Called UDDER cream seriously.
When you sit in the waiting room waiting other ladies come in and you sit and wonder what they are in there for. You can tell if its breast as you have a gown on the top. Some just sit there in normal clothes so I thought it would be like their legs!
An old polish woman started talking to me telling me how tied she was and how the chemo hadn't made her hair fall out yet! So said it might not but it might. So I had to ask... What she was in for... So she goes into the whole thing (wish I had not asked now) She said for a couple of years she had trouble doing a pee and went to the doctors who said nothing to worry about. Turns out she has cancer down there and so now she has a catheter and having radiation and chemo to try and shrink the cancer before they decide to operate. I sat there thinking how lucky am I. As much as I have been through, it does seem that there is always someone worse off then you.
I have friends with issues going on and they are scared to tell you anything because they feel its not as bad as the C word. We all have a cross to bare and no matter what each of us have going on its still a problem just because its not hospital worthy or chemo related it still is an issue and they can talk to me about it. Takes my mind off it and I'm not likely to say oh shut up have cancer then you will have to worry, thats just not it. Even if you broke your leg thats still going to hurt and affect the way you are feeling so if it helps to tell someone with cancer then tell them.
After speaking with the cancer doctor and I am now back on my diet. Since November I've put on 20lbs which it crap so back on the wagon think Ive lost at least 6lbs this week so even better. Ive been out walking with the dogs each morning and bowling and feeling good at the moment. Trouble sleeping at night but thats nothing new, my mind just likes to work overtime.
Well hope everyone else had a good week
Take care
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Two Weeks into Radiation!
Well what can I say! This is my second week and I was feeling OK. As the week as gone on and I'm not sure if its the radiation but my body hurts. Even if someone touches my skin it hurts just to touch. Now this could be the cancer treatment, who knows. On the whole I am OK just tied of this having control of me and my life and my families life. November seems a long way off but least there is a shining light.
The lady at the radiation is lovely, always smiling and happy. Out of all the people I've met through this she is a star, makes my 10 mins of fame a day go smoothly.
I am still working and trying my best, sometimes its hard to type but we get through it and try the best we can.
I'm still bowling each Thursday sometimes its hard but its good to go and just be me, what does get on my "tits" is people keep asking me (are you OK. how you doing, how is it going) it just makes what to say can you just let bowl and forget that I have no hair and my tit is killing me. I know they mean well but this is just what I didn't want and that is the reason I never told anyone, if I had not lost my hair no one would have guessed. As people keep telling me you don't look like you have cancer! Well how you supposed to look...I have two kids I cannot afford to look like I've one foot in the grave. I'm not going anywhere so just leave me to do my thing and struggle on and come out the other side stronger then before, because I will be and I think I will have a different out look.
Being English living in the USA, the amount of people who say don't you miss England. Now let me think! Cold and grey skies, screaming and shouting neighbours. Everyone just nasty and mean. Living here in Florida I am lucky and I love it. Was always my dream and just living where we do makes coming home a joy. See the beach and the sea just makes it all worth while.
The lady at the radiation is lovely, always smiling and happy. Out of all the people I've met through this she is a star, makes my 10 mins of fame a day go smoothly.
I am still working and trying my best, sometimes its hard to type but we get through it and try the best we can.
I'm still bowling each Thursday sometimes its hard but its good to go and just be me, what does get on my "tits" is people keep asking me (are you OK. how you doing, how is it going) it just makes what to say can you just let bowl and forget that I have no hair and my tit is killing me. I know they mean well but this is just what I didn't want and that is the reason I never told anyone, if I had not lost my hair no one would have guessed. As people keep telling me you don't look like you have cancer! Well how you supposed to look...I have two kids I cannot afford to look like I've one foot in the grave. I'm not going anywhere so just leave me to do my thing and struggle on and come out the other side stronger then before, because I will be and I think I will have a different out look.
Being English living in the USA, the amount of people who say don't you miss England. Now let me think! Cold and grey skies, screaming and shouting neighbours. Everyone just nasty and mean. Living here in Florida I am lucky and I love it. Was always my dream and just living where we do makes coming home a joy. See the beach and the sea just makes it all worth while.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Radiation Here We Come!
Last Monday I went for a CT scan (didnt know it at the time) Friday I went to be measured for the start of the Radiation Treatment. The lady was lovely seemed to be always happy and very sweet. The Doctor still gives me the creeps and asks the most bizzare questions defo not sure about him at all. The lady tattooed my book ready for this Monday, they will be there for ever but hey who knows. So I will be going now for 35 days excluding weekends so fingers crossed by March 23rd I will be done. The lady said it would take 10 mins each day. So I have to be there at 11am each day. They were very accommodating and fitted me in.
I have no idea if this Blood Transfusion worked as I still felt like crap and my bones ache but its defo getting better each day and I did get some Iron Pills to try and help me pick up.
Now I just need to shift this weight or I will go mad. I need this to shift this lard arse.
Have a good week everyone
I have no idea if this Blood Transfusion worked as I still felt like crap and my bones ache but its defo getting better each day and I did get some Iron Pills to try and help me pick up.
Now I just need to shift this weight or I will go mad. I need this to shift this lard arse.
Have a good week everyone
Radiation Here We Come!
Last Monday I went for a CT scan (didnt know it at the time) Friday I went to be measured for the start of the Radiation Treatment. The lady was lovely seemed to be always happy and very sweet. The Doctor still gives me the creeps and asks the most bizzare questions defo not sure about him at all. The lady tattooed my book ready for this Monday, they will be there for ever but hey who knows. So I will be going now for 35 days excluding weekends so fingers crossed by March 23rd I will be done. The lady said it would take 10 mins each day. So I have to be there at 11am each day. They were very accommodating and fitted me in.
I have no idea if this Blood Transfusion worked as I still felt like crap and my bones ache but its defo getting better each day and I did get some Iron Pills to try and help me pick up.
Now I just need to shift this weight or I will go mad. I need this to shift this lard arse.
Have a good week everyone
I have no idea if this Blood Transfusion worked as I still felt like crap and my bones ache but its defo getting better each day and I did get some Iron Pills to try and help me pick up.
Now I just need to shift this weight or I will go mad. I need this to shift this lard arse.
Have a good week everyone
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Last Chemo Has been and gone!
Well since my last chemo its been a bad. Think my body just gave up, I was tied all the time and my body just hurt. I ended up going to the hospital because I had stopped doing all body functions and was getting worried. My bloods were way down and finally this week I gave in and had a blood transfusion. The visit to have the Blood was ok, the nurses were lovely and straight to it. Even ordered me lunch which was a surprise, it was eatable.
I arrived at 9am and was getting the blood at 10am and left sometime after 2pm so was alright.
They said after the bloods I would feel like a million dollars but at the moment it doesn't feel like it right now.
Soon as I'm feeling better I'll be posting more often
I arrived at 9am and was getting the blood at 10am and left sometime after 2pm so was alright.
They said after the bloods I would feel like a million dollars but at the moment it doesn't feel like it right now.
Soon as I'm feeling better I'll be posting more often
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Well What A Week
Health wise this was a good week. I managed to work out twice. Couldn't push it but I did it and I so wanted to do more but my time will come. After the sad news this week of loosing Geoff it defo makes you wonder who deals those cards of life. This was a man who worked hard all his life, had a wonderful wife been married 24 years and had two sons. Now she has to go to his funeral in the same church they were married in. House this lovely lady will cope with that I just do not know. We used to joke with Geoff that he sounded like Peter Kay and joke about having BBQ when he comes back next. Even in his last emails to me we were talking about that BBQ and I so wish we could. Theres not many times in life that you meet a family that are so genuine and down to earth. It makes you realize that life is so fragile and you need take every opportunity you can. In a blink in an eye it could be gone!
I went bowling twice this week and had some really good scores so at least thats improving lol The next day though my body hurt but thats to be expected I suppose. Ill just have to make sure when I have the last chemo I work on my fitness.
Work has picked up so thats even better very busy and we have some new contracts starting so lets hope 2011 is better.
I still find it hard when people keep asking me how I am. Ill be out bowling and I just want to bowl I just want to forget that I have this thing inside me, I have no hair. Let me bowl, I'm happy and feel well let me have the goods weeks because next week is going to be the bad week, but at least its the last week and I can hope that my hair will start growing back and I wont have strangers coming up to me asking "Do you have cancer" complete strangers, why would they be so stupid, I would never walk up to some one and ask that, dumbarses. Just leave me be.....
Well Ill post again tomorrow, the last one yipeeeeeeeee
I went bowling twice this week and had some really good scores so at least thats improving lol The next day though my body hurt but thats to be expected I suppose. Ill just have to make sure when I have the last chemo I work on my fitness.
Work has picked up so thats even better very busy and we have some new contracts starting so lets hope 2011 is better.
I still find it hard when people keep asking me how I am. Ill be out bowling and I just want to bowl I just want to forget that I have this thing inside me, I have no hair. Let me bowl, I'm happy and feel well let me have the goods weeks because next week is going to be the bad week, but at least its the last week and I can hope that my hair will start growing back and I wont have strangers coming up to me asking "Do you have cancer" complete strangers, why would they be so stupid, I would never walk up to some one and ask that, dumbarses. Just leave me be.....
Well Ill post again tomorrow, the last one yipeeeeeeeee
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
One Week Left Before the last chemo!
Well all in all not a bad week. Feeling really good actually and I went to the Gym yesterday did not push it too much but I did an hour.
Monday had bloods taken again nothing to report there. I have found my nails are growing and growing. When you read everything on line says your nails like your hair fall out!
I am looking forward to being done with this. I just hope this cures it and I'll live out the rest of my life with no more Doctors or Hospitals.
I did get some sad news today that a friend of ours who was battling cancer has died. It was a BIG shock. Only before Christmas we were joking over email about him and his family coming back to Florida and us getting together for a BBQ. He has to be one of the nicest men I have ever met and a real gentleman. It's not often you walk through life and come across some real special people and want to hang on to that friendship. My heart felt like breaking reading that email for his lovely wife and children and do you carry on when you lose that love and special person.
There has to be a break through soon to help cure this horrible thing they call cancer!
Monday had bloods taken again nothing to report there. I have found my nails are growing and growing. When you read everything on line says your nails like your hair fall out!
I am looking forward to being done with this. I just hope this cures it and I'll live out the rest of my life with no more Doctors or Hospitals.
I did get some sad news today that a friend of ours who was battling cancer has died. It was a BIG shock. Only before Christmas we were joking over email about him and his family coming back to Florida and us getting together for a BBQ. He has to be one of the nicest men I have ever met and a real gentleman. It's not often you walk through life and come across some real special people and want to hang on to that friendship. My heart felt like breaking reading that email for his lovely wife and children and do you carry on when you lose that love and special person.
There has to be a break through soon to help cure this horrible thing they call cancer!
| Date 12/6/10 | Date 12/13/10 | Date 12/20/10 | Date 12/27/10 | Date 01/03/10 | |
| Result | Value | Value | Value | Value | Value |
| WBC White Blood Cell | 8.6 (6.6) | 6.2 (8.6) | 5.4 (6.2) | 9.5 (5.4) | 6.3 |
| Hgb Hemoglobin | 11.5 (10.4) | 11.0 (11.5) | 10.2 (11.0) | 11.8 (10.2) | 10.7 |
| HCT | 34.9 (32.9) | 32.9 (34.9) | 30.3(32.9) | 36.5 (30.3) | 32.5 |
| PLAT Blood Clotting | 137 (223) | 135 (137) | 207 (135) | 221 (207) | 103 |
| ANC 1st defender against bacteria | 5.9 (3.9) | 3.9 (5.9) | 3.3 (3.9) | 6.3 (3.3) | |
Saturday, January 1, 2011
New Year
Well 2011 is here and lets hope its going to my year and everyone else's..
I have to say that the 3rd chemo wasn't so bad. I think taking the sickness pills straight off the bat was the right thing to do. The only thing that week was feeling weak and tired. Last week defo was getting my strength back. Back to working out next week if I'm still feeling this good. Ill take it easy and not push it but I think if I at least work out this week but the time the 10th is here the LAST chemo I will have the strength to get through it and get over it quicker. So we will see.
When you read various blogs about people and their experiences and what they are going through it does make you feel lucky, so people are going a far worse hell then I am. I think when you are told that you have this horrible disease you think the worse and cannot believe why its you. When you see that little children have it you wonder why. It seems everyone in your daily life you speak to knows at least one person that has one sort of cancer. There has to be a break through soon to end all this misery.
Monday is more blood work and of course money start of a new year so start of the new Insurance policy. Oh well what you going to do SMILE and the world smiles with you. :)
I'm not going to worry about money. I'll make sure that all my bills are paid that there is food in the cupboard and whats left I'll pay at little to the cancer fund. Cannot get blood out of a stone.
My priority is to get my company back on its feet get proactive and keep everyone moving and doing what they should be doing. I worked all over Christmas and New Years and it was so busy. The totals were higher then last year and I hope its a sign of things to come that 2011 really is an upturn.
I just hope everyone else out there thinks positively and gets through their treatment and looks on the bright side and SMILE as they saying goes SMILE AND THE WHOLE WORLD WILL SMILE WITH YOU.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ayTsdpms-VE
Click the YouTube link and sing along.
Until tomorrow dear hearts
I have to say that the 3rd chemo wasn't so bad. I think taking the sickness pills straight off the bat was the right thing to do. The only thing that week was feeling weak and tired. Last week defo was getting my strength back. Back to working out next week if I'm still feeling this good. Ill take it easy and not push it but I think if I at least work out this week but the time the 10th is here the LAST chemo I will have the strength to get through it and get over it quicker. So we will see.
When you read various blogs about people and their experiences and what they are going through it does make you feel lucky, so people are going a far worse hell then I am. I think when you are told that you have this horrible disease you think the worse and cannot believe why its you. When you see that little children have it you wonder why. It seems everyone in your daily life you speak to knows at least one person that has one sort of cancer. There has to be a break through soon to end all this misery.
Monday is more blood work and of course money start of a new year so start of the new Insurance policy. Oh well what you going to do SMILE and the world smiles with you. :)
I'm not going to worry about money. I'll make sure that all my bills are paid that there is food in the cupboard and whats left I'll pay at little to the cancer fund. Cannot get blood out of a stone.
My priority is to get my company back on its feet get proactive and keep everyone moving and doing what they should be doing. I worked all over Christmas and New Years and it was so busy. The totals were higher then last year and I hope its a sign of things to come that 2011 really is an upturn.
I just hope everyone else out there thinks positively and gets through their treatment and looks on the bright side and SMILE as they saying goes SMILE AND THE WHOLE WORLD WILL SMILE WITH YOU.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ayTsdpms-VE
Click the YouTube link and sing along.
Until tomorrow dear hearts
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Bloods 12/27/10
Well the 3rd chemo was just as bad as the 2nd but this time I made sure I took the sickness pills and kept taking them. I was still weak the whole week but I did drag myself to bowling as it was the position night and Christmas party and I wanted to be "normal"
The bloods came through all ok and this week has been good. Ive felt good and I'm back on my diet Im going to be eating right and I do need to find out the right foods to eat. I spoke to someone today and he said I shouldn't be eating Soy when I have Her 2 positive so I defo need to find out more about this so I'm prepared for the future.
Felling so much better this week and now there is only two more weeks before the last chemo and then I have to wait 4 weeks before they start radiation and I hope this is the start of a very long future and a very long life.
The bloods came through all ok and this week has been good. Ive felt good and I'm back on my diet Im going to be eating right and I do need to find out the right foods to eat. I spoke to someone today and he said I shouldn't be eating Soy when I have Her 2 positive so I defo need to find out more about this so I'm prepared for the future.
Felling so much better this week and now there is only two more weeks before the last chemo and then I have to wait 4 weeks before they start radiation and I hope this is the start of a very long future and a very long life.
| Date 12/6/10 | Date 12/13/10 | Date 12/20/10 | Date 12/27/10 | |
| Result | Value | Value | Value | Value |
| WBC White Blood Cell | 8.6 (6.6) | 6.2 (8.6) | 5.4 (6.2) | 9.5 (5.4) |
| Hgb Hemoglobin | 11.5 (10.4) | 11.0 (11.5) | 10.2 (11.0) | 11.8 (10.2) |
| HCT | 34.9 (32.9) | 32.9 (34.9) | 30.3(32.9) | 36.5 (30.3) |
| PLAT Blood Clotting | 137 (223) | 135 (137) | 207 (135) | 221 (207) |
| ANC 1st defender against bacteria | 5.9 (3.9) | 3.9 (5.9) | 3.3 (3.9) | 6.3 (3.3) |
Monday, December 20, 2010
3rd Chemo
Well here we are again 3rd one down and 1 left to go. Quiet boring really sat there for couple of hours. Had my laptop and a book.
Putting the needle in the medi-port was the worse part of it. Think she was just a bad shot.
Do have a really bad head and a bad taste in my mouth but mints and ice cream I'm sure will work haha
I did find out today that the clinic will not help me with a payment plan and want me to come up with $5800 by the next chemo 10th Jan...Told her we don't have it now what.
She also thinks that the insurance company will not cover one of the drugs that I need for the next year ....and it costs $4500 each treatment and I need it every 3 weeks... but shes not sure so why mention it and cause stress. If they don't cover it then Ill be getting on a plane and moving back to the UK and living with my parents. Fingers crossed it does not come to that so time will tell.
Had my bloods done they are a little low but ok for now.
Putting the needle in the medi-port was the worse part of it. Think she was just a bad shot.
Do have a really bad head and a bad taste in my mouth but mints and ice cream I'm sure will work haha
I did find out today that the clinic will not help me with a payment plan and want me to come up with $5800 by the next chemo 10th Jan...Told her we don't have it now what.
She also thinks that the insurance company will not cover one of the drugs that I need for the next year ....and it costs $4500 each treatment and I need it every 3 weeks... but shes not sure so why mention it and cause stress. If they don't cover it then Ill be getting on a plane and moving back to the UK and living with my parents. Fingers crossed it does not come to that so time will tell.
Had my bloods done they are a little low but ok for now.
| Date 12/6/10 | Date 12/13/10 | Date 12/20/10 | |
| Result | Value | Value | Value |
| WBC White Blood Cell | 8.6 (6.6) | 6.2 (8.6) | 5.4 (6.2) |
| Hgb Hemoglobin | 11.5 (10.4) | 11.0 (11.5) | 10.2 (11.0) |
| HCT | 34.9 (32.9) | 32.9 (34.9) | 30.3(32.9) |
| PLAT Blood Clotting | 137 (223) | 135 (137) | 207 (135) |
| ANC 1st defender against bacteria | 5.9 (3.9) | 3.9 (5.9) | 3.3 (3.9) |
