Oh What a Feeling!

Tuesday night/Wednesday morning. Woke up in the middle of the night around 12.30am and felt like I had been hit by a train. I woke wet with sweat, then I felt like I was going to be sick. Then went cold. So took the anti-sick pills but as soon as I laid down my stomach started lurching as if it was going to throw up. All night I was up and down It felt like the worst kind of man flu, every bone, joint even my eyes hurt. I sat there thinking no not doing this again. I felt fine before they poured this stuff into me, but as everyone is telling me its for the best but at the moment it doesn't feel like it. 
I had to go to the new Doctors office today and how I drove there I have no idea at all, but I made it and told him about the chemo and he said he would contact that doctor for the information for his records. I also told him about not sleeping and he gave me something to help me. As I need my sleep cannot carry on with no sleep that makes you feel worse then ever when you do not sleep.
I just want to be back to my normal self and get back to doing what I do enjoying my life and my family.