Health wise this was a good week. I managed to work out twice. Couldn't push it but I did it and I so wanted to do more but my time will come. After the sad news this week of loosing Geoff it defo makes you wonder who deals those cards of life. This was a man who worked hard all his life, had a wonderful wife been married 24 years and had two sons. Now she has to go to his funeral in the same church they were married in. House this lovely lady will cope with that I just do not know. We used to joke with Geoff that he sounded like Peter Kay and joke about having BBQ when he comes back next. Even in his last emails to me we were talking about that BBQ and I so wish we could. Theres not many times in life that you meet a family that are so genuine and down to earth. It makes you realize that life is so fragile and you need take every opportunity you can. In a blink in an eye it could be gone!
I went bowling twice this week and had some really good scores so at least thats improving lol The next day though my body hurt but thats to be expected I suppose. Ill just have to make sure when I have the last chemo I work on my fitness.
Work has picked up so thats even better very busy and we have some new contracts starting so lets hope 2011 is better.
I still find it hard when people keep asking me how I am. Ill be out bowling and I just want to bowl I just want to forget that I have this thing inside me, I have no hair. Let me bowl, I'm happy and feel well let me have the goods weeks because next week is going to be the bad week, but at least its the last week and I can hope that my hair will start growing back and I wont have strangers coming up to me asking "Do you have cancer" complete strangers, why would they be so stupid, I would never walk up to some one and ask that, dumbarses. Just leave me be.....
Well Ill post again tomorrow, the last one yipeeeeeeeee
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
One Week Left Before the last chemo!
Well all in all not a bad week. Feeling really good actually and I went to the Gym yesterday did not push it too much but I did an hour.
Monday had bloods taken again nothing to report there. I have found my nails are growing and growing. When you read everything on line says your nails like your hair fall out!
I am looking forward to being done with this. I just hope this cures it and I'll live out the rest of my life with no more Doctors or Hospitals.
I did get some sad news today that a friend of ours who was battling cancer has died. It was a BIG shock. Only before Christmas we were joking over email about him and his family coming back to Florida and us getting together for a BBQ. He has to be one of the nicest men I have ever met and a real gentleman. It's not often you walk through life and come across some real special people and want to hang on to that friendship. My heart felt like breaking reading that email for his lovely wife and children and do you carry on when you lose that love and special person.
There has to be a break through soon to help cure this horrible thing they call cancer!
Monday had bloods taken again nothing to report there. I have found my nails are growing and growing. When you read everything on line says your nails like your hair fall out!
I am looking forward to being done with this. I just hope this cures it and I'll live out the rest of my life with no more Doctors or Hospitals.
I did get some sad news today that a friend of ours who was battling cancer has died. It was a BIG shock. Only before Christmas we were joking over email about him and his family coming back to Florida and us getting together for a BBQ. He has to be one of the nicest men I have ever met and a real gentleman. It's not often you walk through life and come across some real special people and want to hang on to that friendship. My heart felt like breaking reading that email for his lovely wife and children and do you carry on when you lose that love and special person.
There has to be a break through soon to help cure this horrible thing they call cancer!
| Date 12/6/10 | Date 12/13/10 | Date 12/20/10 | Date 12/27/10 | Date 01/03/10 | |
| Result | Value | Value | Value | Value | Value |
| WBC White Blood Cell | 8.6 (6.6) | 6.2 (8.6) | 5.4 (6.2) | 9.5 (5.4) | 6.3 |
| Hgb Hemoglobin | 11.5 (10.4) | 11.0 (11.5) | 10.2 (11.0) | 11.8 (10.2) | 10.7 |
| HCT | 34.9 (32.9) | 32.9 (34.9) | 30.3(32.9) | 36.5 (30.3) | 32.5 |
| PLAT Blood Clotting | 137 (223) | 135 (137) | 207 (135) | 221 (207) | 103 |
| ANC 1st defender against bacteria | 5.9 (3.9) | 3.9 (5.9) | 3.3 (3.9) | 6.3 (3.3) | |
Saturday, January 1, 2011
New Year
Well 2011 is here and lets hope its going to my year and everyone else's..
I have to say that the 3rd chemo wasn't so bad. I think taking the sickness pills straight off the bat was the right thing to do. The only thing that week was feeling weak and tired. Last week defo was getting my strength back. Back to working out next week if I'm still feeling this good. Ill take it easy and not push it but I think if I at least work out this week but the time the 10th is here the LAST chemo I will have the strength to get through it and get over it quicker. So we will see.
When you read various blogs about people and their experiences and what they are going through it does make you feel lucky, so people are going a far worse hell then I am. I think when you are told that you have this horrible disease you think the worse and cannot believe why its you. When you see that little children have it you wonder why. It seems everyone in your daily life you speak to knows at least one person that has one sort of cancer. There has to be a break through soon to end all this misery.
Monday is more blood work and of course money start of a new year so start of the new Insurance policy. Oh well what you going to do SMILE and the world smiles with you. :)
I'm not going to worry about money. I'll make sure that all my bills are paid that there is food in the cupboard and whats left I'll pay at little to the cancer fund. Cannot get blood out of a stone.
My priority is to get my company back on its feet get proactive and keep everyone moving and doing what they should be doing. I worked all over Christmas and New Years and it was so busy. The totals were higher then last year and I hope its a sign of things to come that 2011 really is an upturn.
I just hope everyone else out there thinks positively and gets through their treatment and looks on the bright side and SMILE as they saying goes SMILE AND THE WHOLE WORLD WILL SMILE WITH YOU.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ayTsdpms-VE
Click the YouTube link and sing along.
Until tomorrow dear hearts
I have to say that the 3rd chemo wasn't so bad. I think taking the sickness pills straight off the bat was the right thing to do. The only thing that week was feeling weak and tired. Last week defo was getting my strength back. Back to working out next week if I'm still feeling this good. Ill take it easy and not push it but I think if I at least work out this week but the time the 10th is here the LAST chemo I will have the strength to get through it and get over it quicker. So we will see.
When you read various blogs about people and their experiences and what they are going through it does make you feel lucky, so people are going a far worse hell then I am. I think when you are told that you have this horrible disease you think the worse and cannot believe why its you. When you see that little children have it you wonder why. It seems everyone in your daily life you speak to knows at least one person that has one sort of cancer. There has to be a break through soon to end all this misery.
Monday is more blood work and of course money start of a new year so start of the new Insurance policy. Oh well what you going to do SMILE and the world smiles with you. :)
I'm not going to worry about money. I'll make sure that all my bills are paid that there is food in the cupboard and whats left I'll pay at little to the cancer fund. Cannot get blood out of a stone.
My priority is to get my company back on its feet get proactive and keep everyone moving and doing what they should be doing. I worked all over Christmas and New Years and it was so busy. The totals were higher then last year and I hope its a sign of things to come that 2011 really is an upturn.
I just hope everyone else out there thinks positively and gets through their treatment and looks on the bright side and SMILE as they saying goes SMILE AND THE WHOLE WORLD WILL SMILE WITH YOU.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ayTsdpms-VE
Click the YouTube link and sing along.
Until tomorrow dear hearts
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Bloods 12/27/10
Well the 3rd chemo was just as bad as the 2nd but this time I made sure I took the sickness pills and kept taking them. I was still weak the whole week but I did drag myself to bowling as it was the position night and Christmas party and I wanted to be "normal"
The bloods came through all ok and this week has been good. Ive felt good and I'm back on my diet Im going to be eating right and I do need to find out the right foods to eat. I spoke to someone today and he said I shouldn't be eating Soy when I have Her 2 positive so I defo need to find out more about this so I'm prepared for the future.
Felling so much better this week and now there is only two more weeks before the last chemo and then I have to wait 4 weeks before they start radiation and I hope this is the start of a very long future and a very long life.
The bloods came through all ok and this week has been good. Ive felt good and I'm back on my diet Im going to be eating right and I do need to find out the right foods to eat. I spoke to someone today and he said I shouldn't be eating Soy when I have Her 2 positive so I defo need to find out more about this so I'm prepared for the future.
Felling so much better this week and now there is only two more weeks before the last chemo and then I have to wait 4 weeks before they start radiation and I hope this is the start of a very long future and a very long life.
| Date 12/6/10 | Date 12/13/10 | Date 12/20/10 | Date 12/27/10 | |
| Result | Value | Value | Value | Value |
| WBC White Blood Cell | 8.6 (6.6) | 6.2 (8.6) | 5.4 (6.2) | 9.5 (5.4) |
| Hgb Hemoglobin | 11.5 (10.4) | 11.0 (11.5) | 10.2 (11.0) | 11.8 (10.2) |
| HCT | 34.9 (32.9) | 32.9 (34.9) | 30.3(32.9) | 36.5 (30.3) |
| PLAT Blood Clotting | 137 (223) | 135 (137) | 207 (135) | 221 (207) |
| ANC 1st defender against bacteria | 5.9 (3.9) | 3.9 (5.9) | 3.3 (3.9) | 6.3 (3.3) |
Monday, December 20, 2010
3rd Chemo
Well here we are again 3rd one down and 1 left to go. Quiet boring really sat there for couple of hours. Had my laptop and a book.
Putting the needle in the medi-port was the worse part of it. Think she was just a bad shot.
Do have a really bad head and a bad taste in my mouth but mints and ice cream I'm sure will work haha
I did find out today that the clinic will not help me with a payment plan and want me to come up with $5800 by the next chemo 10th Jan...Told her we don't have it now what.
She also thinks that the insurance company will not cover one of the drugs that I need for the next year ....and it costs $4500 each treatment and I need it every 3 weeks... but shes not sure so why mention it and cause stress. If they don't cover it then Ill be getting on a plane and moving back to the UK and living with my parents. Fingers crossed it does not come to that so time will tell.
Had my bloods done they are a little low but ok for now.
Putting the needle in the medi-port was the worse part of it. Think she was just a bad shot.
Do have a really bad head and a bad taste in my mouth but mints and ice cream I'm sure will work haha
I did find out today that the clinic will not help me with a payment plan and want me to come up with $5800 by the next chemo 10th Jan...Told her we don't have it now what.
She also thinks that the insurance company will not cover one of the drugs that I need for the next year ....and it costs $4500 each treatment and I need it every 3 weeks... but shes not sure so why mention it and cause stress. If they don't cover it then Ill be getting on a plane and moving back to the UK and living with my parents. Fingers crossed it does not come to that so time will tell.
Had my bloods done they are a little low but ok for now.
| Date 12/6/10 | Date 12/13/10 | Date 12/20/10 | |
| Result | Value | Value | Value |
| WBC White Blood Cell | 8.6 (6.6) | 6.2 (8.6) | 5.4 (6.2) |
| Hgb Hemoglobin | 11.5 (10.4) | 11.0 (11.5) | 10.2 (11.0) |
| HCT | 34.9 (32.9) | 32.9 (34.9) | 30.3(32.9) |
| PLAT Blood Clotting | 137 (223) | 135 (137) | 207 (135) |
| ANC 1st defender against bacteria | 5.9 (3.9) | 3.9 (5.9) | 3.3 (3.9) |
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Friday 17th
Well what a week. Thursday I went bowling and was feeling really good. So decided Friday I would go to the Gym and I did. I didn't push it but I worked as hard as I could. Felt like my old self again. Kinda strange when you think Monday is the 3rd Chemo and Im going to feel like crap for the next week.
I really hope it isnt as bad as the second one was as Id like to go bowling its position night and Christmas party and I would like to be there.
Well hope everyone has a good week and I'll check in Monday and let you know how it went.
I really hope it isnt as bad as the second one was as Id like to go bowling its position night and Christmas party and I would like to be there.
Well hope everyone has a good week and I'll check in Monday and let you know how it went.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Another Blood Test
Monday came around fast again...Time for more blood work. Went to have the blood work done and I asked the nurse about the bumps on my head and becoming spotty she said it was a reaction to one of the chemo meds. She said I'm one of the people that is getting all the reactions out there lol
I do feel good this week so far a little tied but other then that on top of the world. If it wasn't so cold I'd feel even better lol
Next Monday is the 3rd chemo time is running by so quickly before I know it January will be here and the last chemo and boy I hope whoever is dealing the cards of fate is going to give me a break and let us have the rest of our lives in some kind of peace and happiness.
I know that I am avoiding going out and keeping to myself which is fine by me just getting through these months and then onward and upward.
Have a good week everyone
I do feel good this week so far a little tied but other then that on top of the world. If it wasn't so cold I'd feel even better lol
Next Monday is the 3rd chemo time is running by so quickly before I know it January will be here and the last chemo and boy I hope whoever is dealing the cards of fate is going to give me a break and let us have the rest of our lives in some kind of peace and happiness.
| Date 11/8/2010 | Date 11/15/10 | Date 11/22/10 | Date 11/29/10 | Date 12/6/10 | Date 12/13/10 | |
| Result | Value | Value | Value | Value | Value | Value |
| WBC White Blood Cell | 6.2 (8.6) | 13.9 (6.2) | 8.3 (13.9) | 6.6 (8.3) | 8.6 (6.6) | 6.2 (8.6) |
| Hgb Hemoglobin | 12.1 (12.0) | 12.5(12.1) | 11.9(12.5) | 10.4 (11.9) | 11.5 (10.4) | 11.0 (11.5) |
| HCT | 36.7(37.1) | 38.3(36.7) | 35.8(38.3) | 32.9 (35.8) | 34.9 (32.9) | 32.9 (34.9) |
| PLAT Blood Clotting | 245 (302) | 235(245) | 151(235) | 223 (151) | 137 (223) | 135 (137) |
| ANC 1st defender against bacteria | 3.6(5.7) | 9.5(3.6) | 5.6(9.5) | 3.9 (5.6) | 5.9 (3.9) | 3.9 (5.9) |
I know that I am avoiding going out and keeping to myself which is fine by me just getting through these months and then onward and upward.
Have a good week everyone
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Freaky Friday
Well I have to say Friday was a better day. Thursday night I went bowling with my bald head under a cap and to see peoples faces...Shock as no one new. All those weeks of bowling even after 3 surgeries and no one guessed boy I was good. They were all very good asking me if I was ok and how they had no idea. Mission accomplished...
I bowled really well too..
Friday I felt much better like my old self had a few issues with not being able to go to the toilet but hey what you going to do. Then on my head I have head blisters appear and spots on my face so I will ask the Doctor on Monday if this is normal and just perhaps a side affect as they itch like hell.
I did go bowling again Friday night with my husband and bowled on his team and had some good scores, one of the games I just missed 200 and ended up with a 190 which is good for me anyway.
The more I think about there should be a Foundation somewhere for women who cannot afford Breast exams the more I wish I new how to do it. There must be so many women out there that cannot afford to have this done that are walking time bombs. With cancer the way it is everyone deserves the right to be helped and not just be come a statistic and leave their kids behind with no one. More education is needed for women. We are not all the same I didn't find my lump and never would have with boobs like mine so how many more are there out there. How many women out there that need help?
If you could set up a foundation to raise money and offer women the chance of an exam. Get advertisements out on the TV, Radio, Magazines, Church groups telling them importance of doing this and then offering them a way to get it done. So it doesn't cost them anything. If anyone reading this knows a way then let me know and Ill keep thinking trying to find a way...
Well its the weekend a time of relaxing and guess what I had icecream whooo
I bowled really well too..
Friday I felt much better like my old self had a few issues with not being able to go to the toilet but hey what you going to do. Then on my head I have head blisters appear and spots on my face so I will ask the Doctor on Monday if this is normal and just perhaps a side affect as they itch like hell.
I did go bowling again Friday night with my husband and bowled on his team and had some good scores, one of the games I just missed 200 and ended up with a 190 which is good for me anyway.
The more I think about there should be a Foundation somewhere for women who cannot afford Breast exams the more I wish I new how to do it. There must be so many women out there that cannot afford to have this done that are walking time bombs. With cancer the way it is everyone deserves the right to be helped and not just be come a statistic and leave their kids behind with no one. More education is needed for women. We are not all the same I didn't find my lump and never would have with boobs like mine so how many more are there out there. How many women out there that need help?
If you could set up a foundation to raise money and offer women the chance of an exam. Get advertisements out on the TV, Radio, Magazines, Church groups telling them importance of doing this and then offering them a way to get it done. So it doesn't cost them anything. If anyone reading this knows a way then let me know and Ill keep thinking trying to find a way...
Well its the weekend a time of relaxing and guess what I had icecream whooo
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Better Day Thursday
Well today is another day and I'm feeling a little better got some of the sparkle back still not 100% But I went to the Mall for the first time in months and got some new pants. I wore my little knitted hat, and thought to myself so what. If someone says something then Ill got back with a one line....
Having this whole Breast Cancer thing changes everything that you have been doing. I sat there thinking, I've not brought a fitness magazine since I found out, I'm not running my life around a diet and working out. I'm just existing not planning just going from Monday to Monday waiting for the last chemo and then on to the Radiation. Ive not even watched Biggest Looser this season, which I've always done doesn't seem important anymore.
I know I will get through this and hope by next Christmas we will look back and raise a glass and say we did it we made it so whats next.
I wish there was away to help other people get through this whole Breast Cancer thing, some people run races and do bake sales. Which is great raising money but what about when someone is told they have Breast Cancer that feeling of despair and hopefulness all mixed in together. It's never going to be easy telling someone news like. If I was clever I would write a book explaining how I felt how I know they will get through it and not to worry and try and get the point across your not the only one and not all Breast Cancers are the same. Just because someones friend had it or an auntie everyone is different and treatment is different and peoples bodies react in so many different ways. Being strong and positive is got to be the best way to go about it and not putting your head down, lift it up stand proud and walk the walk.
Having this whole Breast Cancer thing changes everything that you have been doing. I sat there thinking, I've not brought a fitness magazine since I found out, I'm not running my life around a diet and working out. I'm just existing not planning just going from Monday to Monday waiting for the last chemo and then on to the Radiation. Ive not even watched Biggest Looser this season, which I've always done doesn't seem important anymore.
I know I will get through this and hope by next Christmas we will look back and raise a glass and say we did it we made it so whats next.
I wish there was away to help other people get through this whole Breast Cancer thing, some people run races and do bake sales. Which is great raising money but what about when someone is told they have Breast Cancer that feeling of despair and hopefulness all mixed in together. It's never going to be easy telling someone news like. If I was clever I would write a book explaining how I felt how I know they will get through it and not to worry and try and get the point across your not the only one and not all Breast Cancers are the same. Just because someones friend had it or an auntie everyone is different and treatment is different and peoples bodies react in so many different ways. Being strong and positive is got to be the best way to go about it and not putting your head down, lift it up stand proud and walk the walk.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Everyone says your a strong person
Every time I receive an email when people have found out that I have Breast Cancer. They always say your a strong person and you will get through this and nothing to worry about.
Well you know there is everything to worry about. I have no family here just my Husband and my two kids. My parents are back in the UK along with my other relatives, who are just as worried but they are there and I am here.
Does everyone think your strong because you don't show your feelings and prefer that people not just keep asking me how I am, or ask my Husband as If I cannot speak for myself. I'm not disabled, I am still working and running a very large company along with the help of my wonderful managers and business partners we just do what we do.
When I still had my hair I could go out and go to the Gym and work out because no one new I had Breast Cancer I could still be me, now when I go out people look (so I think) as I stand there in a hat which I would never wear so they are wondering why.
I don't follow fashion, I don't wear make-up and I don't dress to impress so how am I going to pull off wearing a wig...I have ordered one to see if I can handle it but ya know if I feel stupid I'm not going to wear it. People will just have to live with my G.I Jane look and get over it. I am very lucky that I work from home so I don't have to face the big wide world only when I have to go shopping and most of my business isn't done face to face.
I have been reading a forum base in the UK with people with Breast Cancer and its interesting to see how its handled in the UK, and I wonder if being the age that I am and if I was still in the UK would my lump have been found, operated on and chemo started. I never felt my lump and it was found during a mammogram. The treatment seems to be the same but the finding of the lump might have been another story. The only good think if I was in the UK I would still be covered by the NHS where as here I have to find the money by way of a Deductible in my Insurance coverage.
I do sit here wondering if there is something I could do to make changes to the way you are told that you have a lump and what might or could happen. I have spoken to a few people that where told in the ugliest way and in a very clinical way, whilst I realise there is no easy way to tell someone they have cancer there must be a more positive way of doing it. Even down to the leaflets you are given some of them are just mind blowing.
My father read in the Daily Mail this past Saturday about Jennifer Saunders and her battle. I decided to look it up on the online Daily Mail and found it to be so right and a great piece or writing. I am posting the link here: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1322482/Adrian-Edmondson-struggling-help-wife-Jennifer-Saunders-cancer.html
Well I hope I've not bored you too much and the spelling isn't too bad
Have a good week
Well you know there is everything to worry about. I have no family here just my Husband and my two kids. My parents are back in the UK along with my other relatives, who are just as worried but they are there and I am here.
Does everyone think your strong because you don't show your feelings and prefer that people not just keep asking me how I am, or ask my Husband as If I cannot speak for myself. I'm not disabled, I am still working and running a very large company along with the help of my wonderful managers and business partners we just do what we do.
When I still had my hair I could go out and go to the Gym and work out because no one new I had Breast Cancer I could still be me, now when I go out people look (so I think) as I stand there in a hat which I would never wear so they are wondering why.
I don't follow fashion, I don't wear make-up and I don't dress to impress so how am I going to pull off wearing a wig...I have ordered one to see if I can handle it but ya know if I feel stupid I'm not going to wear it. People will just have to live with my G.I Jane look and get over it. I am very lucky that I work from home so I don't have to face the big wide world only when I have to go shopping and most of my business isn't done face to face.
I have been reading a forum base in the UK with people with Breast Cancer and its interesting to see how its handled in the UK, and I wonder if being the age that I am and if I was still in the UK would my lump have been found, operated on and chemo started. I never felt my lump and it was found during a mammogram. The treatment seems to be the same but the finding of the lump might have been another story. The only good think if I was in the UK I would still be covered by the NHS where as here I have to find the money by way of a Deductible in my Insurance coverage.
I do sit here wondering if there is something I could do to make changes to the way you are told that you have a lump and what might or could happen. I have spoken to a few people that where told in the ugliest way and in a very clinical way, whilst I realise there is no easy way to tell someone they have cancer there must be a more positive way of doing it. Even down to the leaflets you are given some of them are just mind blowing.
My father read in the Daily Mail this past Saturday about Jennifer Saunders and her battle. I decided to look it up on the online Daily Mail and found it to be so right and a great piece or writing. I am posting the link here: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1322482/Adrian-Edmondson-struggling-help-wife-Jennifer-Saunders-cancer.html
Well I hope I've not bored you too much and the spelling isn't too bad
Have a good week
