Life has to go, it’s hard you try and not think about the cancer and all the treatments you’ve had but there is always the what if. When your watching tv it is full of adverts for this drug and that drug. Some times I want to turn the clock back but to when? Before I was born tell my mum that drinking and smoking during pregnancy might not be a good idea! Or to when I was a fat kid eating crap should I have stuck to salad? So when which clock to turn back.
This week I went to a wake for a young man that took his own life, he left a 52 page of why and who not to blame. They say it’s a mental illness but he took time to write and attempted to end it 3 times.
So was it a mental illness or just a young man looking to be understood and loved. We’re the signs missed and if only you could turn the clock back but again till when? Do you look at his childhood, his teens? Why was he so tormented. 
Life is so fragile and can be taken at anytime, talk to your kids, so the love and most of talk to them and listen, make time you gave life to your little ones so help them to live.